Hurt People, hurt people

Young , Strong , Beautiful , Smiling at the world,
Your children are your heaven,
And you.. brought me into your world.
And you were very kind..

A strong admiration grew in my heart,
But starstruck I was,
It turned into obsession,
Curiosity took over,
Uncurbed by the owner of the mind,

Thus,I crossed the line.
Disrespect.
An invasion of privacy.
And simply,idiocy.

I have no defense on my behalf.
On my misdeed.
Only a thousand apologies..
From the deepest core of my heart.

And you,I will always support.

Letters

I wrote my mother a letter today.
And it made me cry.
She is this fragile looking lady,with a super strong heart&soul.
Being away for too long makes me forget that she's alone so far away from me.
Thus,I took her for granted sometimes.
Especially when I'm busy,sometimes I dont call home for almost a week.
I remember,I used to text her everyday,and call every other day.

So,I've decided to change that.
And call her more often.
And snail mail her once in a while.
She's 61 this year.
She's healthy Alhamdulillah.
But I've been living with this fear that I might lose her anytime.
Well it is true in a way,life might be lost anytime..
Thats the reality of life.
This fear that I have is probably due to the fact that I only have her in my life.
My dad passed away when I was 3.

So basically,my Mummy is everything to me. And I love her,and I will cherish her and I will always do.


Allahumma inni a’udhu bika (O Allah! I seek refuge in you)

Min adhabi jahanam (from the torment of the hellfire)

wa min adhabi qabr (and from the torment of the grave)

wamin sharri fitnatil mahya wal mamat (and from the trail and afflictions of life and death)

wamin sharri fitnatil masihid dajjaal (and from the deception of the False Christ.)

Rabbighfir li (O my Lord! Forgive me)

waliwalidayya (and my parents)

Rabbirhamhuma (O my Lord! Bestow your mercy upon them)

kama rabbayani saghira (just as they cherished me in childhood / when I was a child)


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So...

Ive decided to write a blog
:)
cheers peers meers.
Story of the day is on how I've been living alone in my apartment for the last 2 weeks.
Was kinda scary on the first day,but I got over it.
Too lazy to go to my friends' house everyday.
Plus,I get to do my stuff here.

So here's what I did:
Exercise at midnights(coz i've turned into a little bit of a night owl)
Movies
Clean the house
Sew
Re-arrange stuff
Call the electrician and got ourselves some new pretty awesome lighting.
Take a look at my old stuff.
Laundry
And I did some self-discovery journey thing(which leads to this blog,as one of the results)

So,the holiday has been really fun.
Although I did get blue due the lack of interaction with humanbeings sometimes.
But I loved staying home alone!
Wheehoo~
(Not to forget,Alhamdulillah thanks to Allah for hindering me from any unwanted danger)